"It´s April third,1952 at Orgonon. I, Wilhelm Reich, am sitting alone in the large room, in the lower house.
All people are gone.
...There is nobody here to listen what I´m
saying, the reccording apparatus is the only witness.
I hope that someone will, at some time in
the future, listen to this reccording with great respect.
Respect for the courage that was necessary
to sustain the research work the Orgon energy, life energy all through this
years. I shall not go into the great strains, into the details, into the
worries, the sleepless nights, the tears, the expenditures of money, the
effort, the patience that I had to have with all my workers and with all my
students. I would like only to mention the fact that there was nobody ... who
would fully and really from the bottom of his existence understand what I´m
doing and be with me in what I´m doing.
They are all very good people, they are
decent, honest, hardworking, I trust them, they are very good friends (all of
them or most of them), but this does not alter the fact that they all, without
any exception are against - I say, are against - what I am doing.
Every
single one of them spikes me, interferes with my effort, crosses it …"
